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The Nature of ItWhat I feel goes further than the point where the water meets the sky
Beyond any question of "Why?"
Far across the stars scattered way up high
What is within for you is more beautiful than the colours of the rainbow
Travels passed the sun on the horizon
Is more infinite than the seeds of strife that life can sow
It is grand and strong and joyous such as the thrill of flight
Ingrained and natural has breathing
Mysterious, lovely, calming, yet exciting as the night
It is as complex as calculating the rotation of the Earth
Heart and scent and sight
As simple as knowing, appreciating, and being blessed with all that is your worth
Brought on by imaginary adversaries
And (it seems)
Of emotions that go off on tangents
About what to do
And questions that repeat themselves
Until I collapse in a heap of tears
And crumpled Kleenex
'Cause I scroll down that line of text
And wonder what's next
And how to get these feelings off my chest
And wonder why
Wonderin' what's wrong
Until I realize that *I* am
That my parnoia has gotten the better of me
Getting crazy over friends
(Sometimes over strangers)
But sometimes those feelings are justified
But more often than not they aren't
And our hearts are just playing an insane part
But this is the place where are the craziness starts
For the Ones About the TimesThose moments come along when we think of what could have been
The ones that got away and the ones we pushed away
We justify and testify and still we can't convince ourselves of why
Why is it that we've done what we've done
And repeatative motions and repeatative words are useless
And we remain motionless
Not feeling quite blessed
Even if we are surrounded by happiness
We still feel stressed
We try to hide because we don't think we can survive
Through the lies we tell ourselves and the truths we tell too
'Cause we admit that our tears are futile
But we cry them anyway
Only to let them dry to the sounds of our sobs and our stories of yesterday
We know that part of us wished that they had stayed or that we had stayed
But the past is the past and in the past are things we can't change
Such as hearts and minds that have strayed from the path they once walked
Walked with our own and now we feel we walk all alone
But we aren't on our own and we relate to the tunes of o
No Time for TearsThere's no time for tears
There's too much to do
No time for sad thoughts
Thoughts about you
I'm using time I don't have
To write down these lines
I have no time for tears
I have no will to cry
This Is What Summer IsThis is what summer is
It's hot days
And cool nights
Underneath city lights
And cars crowding streets
The city humming along
With the soundtrack of our sweet summer lives.
rainsunAnd while the rain falls down on us
There's nothing else, there's nothing else
Well, nothing else but a silly notion
Of what was once a childhood emotion
And the little voice that whispers
"It could have been"
And the one that whispers back
"But now it can't"
So I'll lick my lips
As I turn my head away
Hoping you won't catch the desire in my eyes
But almost wishing that you will
And the thoughts that are playing in my head
Will get played out in real time
That you'll tilt your head down to mine
To taste the rain on my mouth
But that's not to be
And I know that too well
'Cause there's all this heat
That the storm we feel can't quell
So I'll move along
Pretending that there's nothing going on
Since that's just the way it's supposed to be
Quick.Stop.Speed.My nervous heart beats ever faster
While my breaths come in too short
Fearful thoughts race through my mind
Speeding by too fast to sort
You cannot fathom what you do to me
I myself find it hard to know
There's so much welling up inside
But my mouth it speaks too slow
I feel I've made a spectacle
I have no idea what words to say
Ideas conflict within myself
I choose wrong and put my stupidity on display
UnsaidThese are the unsaid words of the heart you'll never know
The thoughts and feelings of a love I'll never show
This is one of many attempts to express to you how I feel
The emotions of a broken girl who is just beginning to heal
Here it is laid out for you the things I'll never say
I write them out because I know I'll never let you read them anyway
FeelI feel useless and unpretty
Forgotten and alone
I feel not the least bit happy
I feel lost though I'm at home
I get jealous and unruly
My eyes begin to tear
I whisper words into the dark
That you aren't going to hear
I want to punch a hole right through the wall
I want to kick and scream
I want to hunt down certain girls
And be worse than their most frightful dreams
I am angry and possessive
I am guilty and ashamed
I am living through a lonely hour
And just wish that it would rain
I want the world to cry for me
I want someone to care
I want things back the way they were
But at times I don't mind that you aren't there
There's a million others out in the world
Lots of fish in the sea
But on cold and empty nights I find
I wish that you'll want me.
Simple Girl Complicated ProblemsI know I am not the daughter you wanted
But at least you got it right the second time
My little sister found her place in your hearts
But I feel I have never really found mine
Why would you care to listen to your first born?
When you have a fresh blank canvas to create
All of those things that you wish I could have been
Had I not developed such negative traits
But those negative traits make me who I am
And shouldn't you love me without condition?
See my stubbornness as being strong minded
And when I talk, don’t interrupt just listen
I know I am not the daughter you wanted
I scowl but I still need your loving embrace
Though you barely acknowledge my existence
Apart from to tell me what I've done wrong today
But why would you ever want to talk to me
When an argument is never far away?
It’s the tone of your voice that hurts me the most
Rather than the words that you choose to say
To think I was once a baby in your arms
With such innocent eyes I could do no wrong
In many ways I
Little BirdLittle bird,
where have you flown?
how much have you grown?
How is your broken wing?
The one that I cared for,
that I put in a sling.
do you think of me
as I do you?
Do you wonder where I've gone,
what I've gone through?
do visit me again;
you've been the only one
I've ever loved;
my only true friend.
My Personal DevilHis kiss was that of fiery coal,
A peppermint-feel upon cracked lips.
His hands had gripped my soul —
Oh, the feel of ecstasy!
His eyes obtained the celestial sky
And were like the chilly arctic breeze.
There was no chance that I could deny
Such lively things…
His alabaster skin was so gentle, so smooth,
Mocking a similarity of mine as I awake at sunrise.
His touch had a way to soothe
The scorches upon my body…
My personal devil’s love was euphoria;
He had wrapped me in his hellish ways.
My body had been eaten away by chorea.
Yet, I crave his blaze.
Ignite me in the love you share!
Burn me with your singeing lips.
Show me how much you care!
Then drown me in your flickering flames.
His heated hands were placed upon my face.
His snakes spiraling up my legs.
Our lips were near a kiss, which he did not place,
And, instead, withdrew himself.
His deadly presence, his own personal darkness,
Was brightened by the sun.
I slowly awoke in emptiness
And lost my personal d
ParasiteWhen the day turns into night,
it begins, the everyday fight.
They begin to talk in my head.
If anybody found out they would tell me I’m mad.
I don’t know if the one who thinks is me.
Can’t these voices just let me be?
Speaking and confusing my thoughts.
For me these things are only frauds.
What if the things that I think are not mine?
Should I just lay here and whine?
I think they corrupted my soul.
No, maybe even my body as a whole.
This is the side of me that I have never shown.
At times like these it is dangerous to be alone.
My head feels like it’s blown off with dynamite.
I don’t know, maybe my brain is occupied by a parasite.
Peace is a lieHello there, why don’t we take a walk?
While we take a walk, I would really like to talk.
Did you ever asked yourself what is wrong with this world?
Why people are so screwed up in the head and their thoughts are twirled?
It is no secret that the world is at war.
And falling down are the masks that they wore.
Something in their heads seems to be broken.
Humanity is a monster and it has been woken.
When you think about it everything is a lie.
The only question you will have is: why?
Everyone is hoping for the big release.
But don’t be stupid, there is no peace.
Queen of NeverthenAtop the ashen bones, arrayed like thrones of Men
Sits none so dreary as the Queen of Neverthen
Great cobwebs, dust, and stolid, stale decay
Dead memories forgotten where they lay
A world, still and ever gray
That suffocates the ones who trespass in her den
Within a rotten skull, a fetid rat emerged
As swift as plague it bore and chittered as it surged
Low creaks and clatters sound akin to life
Its rodent teeth soon grinding like a knife
The Queen was happy with this strife
But nothing ever lasts save those who would be purged
Oppressive silence soon returns to her domain
Admiring her flock that she will never deign
A dull light shines behind their pallid masks
The company of corpses; all she asks
Falling StarsTwinkle, twinkle, the stars fall down
Down into the ocean, where we shall drown
Over and over until we awake
In a place, where we will break.
Your tears are the stars and your smile the sun
There is no happiness, for sorrow has begun.
Run, run, child! Run away now!
Please do not do this! Please do not allow —
Bang! Bang! The gun goes off.
So, child, let those stars takeoff.
No AirI never expected to love you.
I never expected to care.
I never thought you would be on my mind.
I never noticed if you were there.
I don't know when it started,
But I hope it never ends.
The way I feel with you tonight
Is more than I can comprehend.
And when you talk
about things that I don't know
I lose my mind a little.
But I love the way you glow
I can't help the butterflies
I can't concentrate when I'm with you
The truth is -- if I'm honest --
Sometimes I want to kiss you.
So maybe it's no secret,
And maybe you don't care,
But when I see you my heart beats fast
And suddenly there is no air.
Wind GrownQuiet grown
With green and ground
The ash and sound
Until the green has 'nother play
A wat'ry stream
Down with a tide
Across the beam
The first to know the last of one
Breath of space
Carved by your arm
A heady place
Awaits no harm
Because no eyes will watch or plea
Wind is wrapt
Around you braced
By time that kept
You wings misplaced
One cannot fly where wearies went
Height and breadth
Come with the stars
While nourished wealth
From flanks and far
The form is kept but not the brain
Stones will crack
Under your weight
Streams run black
The light you take
Unknown on high there's but your will
The path you made
Will flood and break
No more remained
Your flanks are slaked
Come back when you are broke and burned
Now hole refilled
Where life was held
The ash was forged
Until the wind the self will stay
MalfunctionFunctionin need of distraction
mind not at ease
breaths coming short
heart rate increasing
thoughts going nowhere
on keeping from shaking
when will it end
insides are quaking
hearing is sensitive
no one is calling
anger this brings
emotions are plenty
sadness and hate
worry and discomfort
the hour is late
nothing is happening
no one is there
if nothing is wrong here
why should i care
can't do a damned thing
mind is shut down
lip hurts from biting
mouth is a frown
when will the call come
to make this all end
closure and comfort
so i can function again
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